watch me

अंग्री!

i am my own girl.

anger fuelling the black eyeliner, biting my lips until they turn red.

i am my own girl in a big world. it's time to brush myself off and live life for myself.

it's amazing how much more energy i have.

वाके

i am in desperate need of a vacation. let's go drink maitai's on the beach - turn up the heat, wear our swimsuits and imagine we're in the bahamas. i can almost hear the waves crashing on the sand, feel the sun on my face.

is it spring break yet?

क्रिएटिव

बेद

a secret escape
i breathe the white of the walls, the blue of your eyes
i dream of oceans and

<3

शिन्य तोय गुंस

i guess if i have to learn to shoot, i'd want to have this:

वाकिंग उप

waking up next to him, my skin warm, my heart on fire.

i am in love with the way the world works.

युम्मी

omg i love ramen noodles with an egg and peas

you know just the right words to make me smile

<3

काल्लिंग

"i thought that the world had lost its sway
then i fell in love with you
and you took that away
you take away the old
show me the new
and i feel like i can fly
when i stand next to you
so what if I'm on this phone
a hundred miles from home
i take the words you gave
and send them back to you"

Calling You, Blue October

स्त्रिप्पेर

dancing, she is beautiful

i notice she watches herself in the mirror. a feminine gesture, the curve of her hips round and exotic. playing peekaboo with us. fun, pretty.

the tiny white strip of lace accentuates her girlishness. she reminds me of mila kunis - dark hair, arched eyebrows, pouty pink lips. coy, she lets men look but not touch.

kneeling before me, we giggle. "i don't bite," she says, putting my tips between teeth. her naked skin against my face, i laugh. "thankyou," she smiles.

so far my strip club experience has been very positive here in little KS. ;)

एरिजोना

those winter nights when i think i will scream because of the grey, the cold, the snowy winds that freeze my fingertips and make me origami myself into layers of sleeves and hoodies and socks -

- all i can think about is the cool crisp sky blue arizona mornings when the moisture in the air beads up crystal clear on the tips of the prickly pear, the afternoon wind whispering through the mesquite, the morning star still shining in the wide open cloudless sky -

i miss...

फ्रिएंड्स

i am making friends! yay!

and i really want to get on with my new years resolution of taking yoga...

it makes me feel like i have a lot more energy, and it makes my body feel strong and beautiful. and i's relaxing too. the one time of the day that i can just focus on breathing and my own internal self and let everything else just fade out.

i rememember summer days when my toes would stick to the mat, chakra breathing cooling me down, and those cold blue winter nights we would push ourselves and breathe in smoky incense that stayed on my clothes and kept my energy warm inside me until the next day.

and it was sooo much more fun than that 6am pilates class. ><

i'm going to start working out tonight (apparently, according to eric) so maybe i can get my butt in stripper-shape... but i still really want to take a yoga class.