ओरंगे मून

the moon a medallion in the decolletage of night, a glowing orange lantern on a garden party evening. like a waking dream revealing itself true, i held my breath, knowing the ache in my heart was love. gravitational magnetism drawing me to this boy, this night, this moment. for the longest time no words were spoken; in the easy silence i was sure he loved me too.

i will never forget that night, i will never forget that moment, i will never lose the love i have for this boy.

props

photoshoot prop ideas:

umbrella
angel wings
rope (purple, please)
christmas lights

recently inspired by this livejournal feed

i am such an exhibitionist.

सिंस ई मके एनौघ ऑफ़ थेम

What Your Latte Says About You

When it comes to what you like, you have your own unique tastes. And people don't really understand them. You are a very frivolous person. You don't take anything too seriously. Why should you? You have a good deal of energy, but you pace yourself. You never burn out too fast. You're addicted to caffeine. There's no denying it. You are a child at heart, and you don't ever miss the opportunity to do something playful. You are honest and genuine, but you are never tactless.

What Does Your Latte Say About You?

ई मिस

i miss snuggling with you under the covers in the early hours of morning. i miss being held, barely breathing, quietly just taking it all in. i miss the rope around my wrists, being pinned to the floor, my heart racing. i miss laughing, untying apron strings, that bratty sense of humor. i miss the way you look at me at unexpected moments. i miss your mouth, your arms, your dragons, your eyes, your thoughts, the way you show rather than tell.

i miss you.

"Searching mountains, fields, and meadows green
What is it my heart can hope to find
All I long for I have never seen
Tales of glory written in the dust
Tapestries of deepest purple gold
Legends carved in stone tell me I must
Journey through the mist and bitter cold
Seeking in the corners of the earth
My companions I have never known
Blindly running forth, is honor worth
Endless hours of silence spent alone?"
~ Emilie Autumn, By the Sword

सुच अ गर्ल

This kimchi&blue jumper is on it's way to me :) yay

आर्ट

an artist is an unpredictable being.

what would matisse be without aqua trees?

what would van gogh be without his ear?

what would pavarotti be without his tantrums?

what would elsa schiaparelli be without her infamous dress?


sometimes you have to follow your heart no matter how many different directions it pulls you.

बैक तो स्चूल

So i just submitted a request for an application/ information interview at Pivot Point . :) ! just to get some ideas, answers, and a realistic view on things to decide if this is what i want.

ग्रेग

i can't let him go.

i know what i want, i just don't know how to get it from so far away.

अशेस ऎंड स्नो

I saw this exhibit one spring in LA, and it was one of the most breathtaking things I have seen.



I love these images, I love the memory of walking through the softly sun-slanted gallery, stopping slowly at each sepia photograph. It was incredibly crowded, but it was so quiet it felt like it was just you and the photos. My favorite was a photo series of stills transformed into a video stream of a boy swimming with an elephant. The composite of never having seen such an event with the way the artist allowed the viewer to forget about logistics made me catch my breath, stop and think, and realize that so much is going on in the world while we live our daily lives.

हेअर्ताचे

things that make me happy today

*green tea
*heart to heart phonecalls
*cold breezes
*sims storyboards on the livejournal feed
*new super short no-nonsense skirt from Express on sale
*pumpkin spice
*japanese koto music
*"i love you"
*orange sunset clouds on a perfect fall day

व्हें

when i don't know where your heart lies, i will never trust it. I ask you questions every night, and the one that matters most has never been answered.

I search your deepest caverns blindfolded. Silently sitting, waiting patiently under the canopy of your fabricated life, I hold my breath for that single leaf to fall. I cannot breathe, I cannot keep waiting. I cannot keep looking for something you are not willing to hand to me.

बब्य्सित्तिंग

Today I babysat for my babysitter's baby. hehe Petit David, he is sooo cute. And smart!



He was fascinated with the smallest things, the water from the faucet, the shadows his fingers made with the sun streaming in the windows. It was so much work, but so rewarding.

सो मुच

i'm so in love it hurts.

i want him, i love him. i am sure.

and i don't know what to do.

i can't wait to see him again.

रेमेम्बेर

remember the morning on venice, so early the merchants weren't there, we ran down the boardwalk chasing the seagulls and waited as the sun came up. i thought about that tattoo because i wanted to remember forever what that felt like - it was nothing about ink or skin or little blue stars. remember sleeping in, our sunburns red and it even hurt to laugh. i think i laughed harder than i have ever laughed that day, in the passenger seat of your car. late nights, empty bars, we drank banana martinis and rum and coke, and wished to be back at homeish and all i want right now is to be at that empty little tiki bar with you. remember the hammock late at night where we whispered and fell asleep, the warmth of the jacuzzi evaporating into the blue night air. we still have to ding-dong ditch Ray Bradbury, plan a post-it bandit mission, and protest rainforest deforestation outside of Prada. remember taking the bus on full moon october nights, sushi monsters, and eating ice cream in plaid pajama pants. remember early morning naps, the sun streaming in the window - it felt like the world was on pause. i would give anything just to have that full moon first kiss feeling again.

मिर्रोर मिर्रोर

Just when i feel like i am a lost little girl in a big spinning world, something happens to let me know i am not alone.

A text, a conversation that is like the words taken out of my mouth, a look into the other side of the story...



Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight, will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is
~ There Is, Boxcar Racer

ब्यूटी इस अस ब्यूटी डेस

So i am seriously considering beauty school.

i've kept coming back to the idea, and have given it a lot of thought. i would be using my communication skills, as well as some of my design education, and combining it with the skills i would learn in beauty school. i have enough advertising behind me that with a little business savvy, i could very possibly open my own salon someday...

today

Today is a Death Cab for Cutie kind of day.

अपोलोगीज़े

story of my life

please click ^ it explains everything

मून

It's a new moon. Thank Vishnu. Time to breathe, start over.

I'm ready.

लोवे

my love for you
is like fire under water

उन्स्पोकें

those words
written true
engraved upon
your heart
those words
piercing
like the twist of a sword
those words
blindingly vibrant
eyes closed
i turn away
those words
you will never say
to me

कप्काके

ला

thinking about going to LA in October...

हैप्पी

things that make me happy today:

*morning texts from dragon
*music - today i'm into As Tall As Lions and Alkaline Trio
*cloudless blue skies, and chilly breezes. fall is coming! yay
*blueberry white iced tea in the fridge
*full tank of gas in my car
*photos - love this photographer
*soft cozy plaid pajama pants
*having the morning to do whatever i want

~happy sigh~

For this freedom
I have given all I had
For this darkness
I gave my light
For this wisdom
I have lost my innocence
Take my petals
And cover me with the night

-Rose Red, Emilie Autumn

wishlist

*striped lolita stockings
*black combat boots
*a second job
*a koto
*corset top - like tam's!
*a girls day out shopping - VS, anyone?
*rent money
*Kansas to be closer to Chicago
*wireless internet
*a collar
*professional pics ...aimes?
*macaroni and cheese
*cuddles

ल्य्रिक्स

wait for a heart that never lies